Soooo, I haven't done a journal in a while. Not because I don't have anything to write, in fact I have more to write than ever, but that I don't know HOW to write it, if you get me.
So I'd thought to just mesh up some things I'd like to share with the world into one (hopefully not too long) journal entry!
I warn you already; it IS long... as always *sigh*

First of all, I want to notify ANY Requiem Mask fan (you know, that Phantom comic by Iron-Gibbet) that IG also has official forums, which is great! But they are still a bit empty... and if you're interested; don't hesitate to join!
I am on them and go by the name of Trap-door Lover, which really ISN'T a nudge to Erik. Really not. Ab-so-lu-te-ly NOT! I would never-ever use anything that references to Erik, you know me, right!?
Anyway you can find it here; [link] or go to their official site; [link] and click 'community'.

The second thing is some great music I'd love to share!
I don't know if any of you have heard of the Piano Guys but they are TRULY amazing! And you SHOULD definitely check them out! This is their channel; [link]
This is a One Direction cover they did; [link] And I hear you thinking "WTF ONE DIRECTION!? NOOOOO!" But seriously, watch it and be amazed! I found myself actually ENJOYING One Direction! O_O I could start recommending songs, but sorry... I can't! I ALL love them, so that'd be posting all video's from their channel here. XD Often the video's are worth watching as well, they're very high in quality, and just the joy that radiates from those two guys is heart-warming!

And further there are these music companies or something called "Two Steps from Hell" and "Future World Music", and they truly make EPIC music, like what you could hear as a backing track for a movie or something. lately I've been seriously addicted to LOTS of their songs (not all of them are good, but some are REALLY what I'd call 'divine')
I'll list a few to get you started...
Future World Music
Protectors of the Light [link]
Dream Chasers [link]
Eternal Love [link]
Gothic Storm (yea, I know I said it was only Future World Music and Two Steps From Hell, but this one is so beautiful I HAVE to add it!)
We Meet in Dreams [link]
Two Steps From Hell
After the Fall [link]
Eria[link]
Everlasting (sounds a bit like After the Fall, but different) [link]
Blackheart [link]

Ohhh, almost forgot this one from Immediate Music: [link]
And... and... ugh! So much music!! <3 But anyway, if you like those first songs I'd recommend to just keep clicking the 'related video's' and see which ones you like. There are some which I love to death, and others that make me shrug and think "Yeah, right!" Some songs also SLIGHTLY (ahemahem) feel as if they're based upon known video game/film music, like one sounding A LOT like the Skyrim Theme, which is, if you ask me, kinda cheap. But they have great music as well!

You should also check Adrian Von Ziegler out, he's an independent composer (without ANY music theory knowledge! O_O), and I personally think he's really good! [link]

And a band called Blackmore's Night is also worth listening to!
To get you started;
Locked Within the Crystal Ball[link]
Ghost of a Rose [link]
Loreley (which, by the way, is based upon a real myth of a water nymph playing enchanting lullabies on the Loreley (a big rock overlooking the arc where the Rhine is at it's smallest) and causing lots of trouble for the ships which passed though there) [link]
Anyway, if you liked those songs you should really check out the rest of their stuff.

And I think I have now basically covered all of the music which I wanted to share *thinks* *thinks a bit harder* yeah, I guess that was it. (Oh, no, actually it isn't... I had some very nice classical music as well, but I'm too lazy to share that right now)
Or this one from The superduperawesome PIANO GUYS: [link] (I'd suggest you to get some tissues if you watch/listen this. So beautiful...! *snifff*)

All right, I see what I'm doing here, and it's called PROCRASTINATION! I'm trying to write a lot of things only to postpone what I really want and have to say, and which was basically the reason I'm even writing a journal...
Ahem, ahem...! I really don't know how I should tell this, so I'll better make no bones about it and just get it off my chest; I'm learning to play the piano! Yes, you read that right. You aren't getting visually impaired or starting to develop dyslexia, I really AM learning the piano. Not just as some sort of a joke, but seriously! You could say that I've gone a bit crazy, as I can hardly think of anything else anymore, it's truly completely infesting my mind! When I should be fussing about things like school I am busy unravelling the 'secrets' of music, and God! I love it!! Just seeing how everything works, hooks together, and is very logical and beautifully put together makes me excited like a little child. It's crazy, totally crazy, but it's a LONG, LONG time since I've EVER had so much motivation for something!
I told myself I would just see what'd happen and only practise as much as 'felt right', in other words; not force myself to practice for an hour each day if I feel horrible about doing so. But frankly enough I HAVE almost been practising an hour a day, and most of the time I didn't even intend to! Some times I just thought "All right, just a couple minutes, see how this and this works." and then ended up completely forgetting the time, looking at my phone and thinking "NO WAY!" (and I checked, it is set on the right time. I seriously thought it was set wrong), and it goes like that all the time! I just love that I finally start to understand what I used to think was hard and mythical! It makes me feel alive more than ever before, I just cannot describe it...
And yeah, I've got a long road to go before I will consider myself 'good' (which does not mean I have to be perfect, but I just want to be able to play music, improvise here and there, and enjoy myself for hours at a time, and not struggle with my two unruly hands all the time XD (they really ARE unruly!)). But I've already learned a whole lot, and am learning more each day. So I guess it just takes time and practise! Eventually my hands are going to listen, I am certain of it! I mean, I had the same difficulties when learning to type, or learning the 3 beat weave with Poi-ing (which is a death trap, by the way), but now I can do all those things without even thinking, and I cannot imagine they used to be so hard. And if you think about it... written language is actually a fair deal harder than musical language, the only difference is that most of us don't begin by learning music, don't use it daily and live under the paradigm that it's difficult, mythical and something only achievable for prodigies and geniuses, and right now... right now I'm discovering that this paradigm is completely wrong! And that music is actually a beautiful, intuitive, and amazing language which lies close to the hearts of us all. And that... that fills me with such a great happiness and energy... *runs around the house cheering*

Anyway, I just wanted that off my chest for a moment. I wrote a shitload of text, AGAIN! And I haven't even explained every nitty detail that I wanted (my mind likes details. Also general images, but it tends to focus on the details that no one else notices. Those weird things no one ever sees or cares about... my brain is just a bit... weird!)
And let me know what you think! Did you listen to the music? (if you did, you'll get a cookie!) And what did you think of it???
Anyway, if you read this all and also comment... wow, then you'll get a medal! XD And a hug. Depending on my mood also a llama!