I'm done with portraits for now, but after the previous one I just looked at it and asked myself "Is that ALL I got!?" and then honestly said "No." "Okay, then I have to try it again."
It's not yet perfect, I doubt I will ever say something I make is 'perfect', but for the time being I am satisfied. 97% pure satisfaction.
I wanted to show his human side a bit more, as for me, even though his heart became as black as his pork pie hat, he always kept that bit of "Walt" in him, that bit of humanity. (shown even in the very end, when he saves Jesse when he sees he's not collaborating with the Nazis, but has been held captive)
I even dare to say I believe he is right on a lot of things, and inspired me in some way (NO, NO NO I WILL NOT COOK METH OKAY!), mainly when he says fear is the worst of it, and all of that.
When I feel insecure or beaten down, I just say to myself "Fear is the enemy. Now get up. Get up and KICK THAT BASTARD RIGHT IN THE TEETH!", don my metaphorical Heisenberg hat and truly feel "I can do this. I don't need to be afraid. I'm stronger than that!"
Yep. Weird huh?
Regardless how black his soul may have become, in some way I owe Walter for giving me a way to find some of my inner strength back.
Also, haven't we all at one point or another... experienced what it's like to be non-alive, dead on the inside, just merely living in the physical sense? I sure have. I'm doing better now, since I made some choices to pursue MY passion and dreams rather than do what other people want me to do. Not yet perfect, but nothing is perfect, ey!
But at the depth of my silent depression, I was in many ways very much like Walter before he broke bad. If my life hadn't been positively turned upside down, but continued to go down that road for another thirty, forty years (and I were even remotely good at chemistry), and would THEN be hit by a terminal cancer diagnosis... I can HONESTLY not swear to you I wouldn't have done the same thing, with the same good intentions, and then end up being poisoned by the thrill and power like he was. It pains me to admit this, but... quite honestly... chances are I would have.
Linework was done with ballpoint and pencil (sketch), the eye colouring added digitally afterwards
I actually wasn't happy with the previous colouring. The main reason I did that was because I thought it was daft to re-use the same colouring AGAIN, but I think it just looks better... so I changed it.
I wanted to re-upload the file, but DA wouldn't let me... so I had to make a new devitation